After just 1 day, ive cooled down and feel terribly bad.


Dun like this feeling.....

Today i was fierce to someone close to me. But i don't think i'm in the wrong.

I reject zinc's invitation and asked my mum to allow me to play mj at my hse cos u requested and all i get is nonstop complain about my cotton the miniute u reach ny hse.

If u dowan to play, dun waste time. Pet took cab down and u show no remorse. I feel sad and angry at the same time. Angry about all the shit u've done but sad cos as a very close fwen, u still do this kind of shit to me.

Definitely not the first time u saw cotton. Defintely gave u enough time to reject if u dowana. Definitely have tried to keep cotton locked in the cage but u still squirmed and complain. What else can i do?! Everyone's mood is ruined cos of u.. And probably cos im angry and the others duno how to face it.

Time to take off ur shoe and wear mine or the others instead.

Today is third day of cny. Enjoyed myself vry much. But the dreadful part always have to come. That is to start wrk or sch. Lucky shuang. Lucky bitch no wrk, no sch.

Still spending like no other's business. Haven reached the age of 21, i already give those closed ones angbao. People would say for what?! No money still give.. True, it sucks. But its out of respect and to kinda pay back to those who took great pain to look aft me when i was young.

So im broke. Thats the moral of story. Haha.

Today quarreled with alvin. Asked him to come my hse to visit my mum but he wants to go casino. Understand chew's feeling. Just felt angry and neglected. Then all the past thingys he did came back and the fury came up. Bad bad me. But its something i cant control. And if i did control, it wun be the real me. Yeah, the bitchy real me.

yeah, its kinda restored nicely.
thou i duno what really happened.
A little wasted to delete that post that caused all this shit.
BUt at least..... all this shit is gone! yeah!

CNY is now around the corners.
and before i know it, my birthday is coming!
Okay, i really got to admit.
After attending 3 21st birthday parties, this 21st bbirthday hype has kinda died down.

I no longer feel excited.
I haven even really started preparing the celebration.
Its all just ideas that hasn't put into action.
I haven even booked the venue.

WHY always until my own birthday, i will feel so sian??
Whereas I always get so hyped up about others' birthday?!
Seriously, I already looked forward to shuang's birthday.

Perhaps people aren't meant to plan anything for their own.
People are all selfish and dominant one.
We like to control and plan other's lives.
And I admit it, I'm one of them.
My life sucks.
But others' lives doesn't really concern me if it sucks.
So I kinda will go all the way out to 'control their lives'
Its fun though.. doing all the shit and all.
At the end of the day, I would feel ' NO MORE OF THIS SHIT' but the very next day I could be like, 'HEY I MISS ALL THIS SHIT'

Haha.. contradicting selfish little bitch me.

whats wrong with my blog?!
It's sucky! i hate it!

I want netbook.
I want minimo.
I want mobile printer.
I want so many things.








I want money.