Saturday, July 28, 2007
You know what thing makes me sad? It's when I thought I could rely on you but in your case is not. You all just care about yourself and neglect my pain. You were supposed to help me. That what it is, isn't it? And I am not asking for alot. I'm quite independent myself. All I want is help when I needed it. My face is very thin, I won't go to you unless I really needed it. Like when I asked for money to go buy medicine. You just say, "Aiya, I also don't know how and also don't care. No money. Faster go find job. Don't stay at home and rot." All you all know is just push your responsibilties for me to carry it myself. Okay lo, no money no medicine. I don't mind. I fucking don't mind. Like what you all say, it's not the first time I skip my medicine for so many days. Then, I shall not eat anymore. It's not that I want to hurt my body, it is you who make me do this. Fine, I solve my own problems. Should have already knew that I can't depend on you in the first place.

You all suck. Thought that I got HIM, then he can help me solve everything. Sorry hor, I have already said my face is very thin. I hate to ask people for help, especially him. Everyone always say, aiya anything can just depend on your boyfwen; That's what he supposed to do. BULLSHIT, it's really complete bullshit. Why should I let my own problems to be handled by him too? I dowan. I am grateful that he is able to help me when no one can. Thanks so much. But I dowan to owe him anything. This will just give people to have a chance to say that I depended on him. No way, I am very jian de. I always like to do the opposite of what they got to say.

So now my main concern is to find a job asap. No job = no money Apparently I think that pet restaurant is not going to hire me. It has been so long since that interview and yet there is no reply. Even Alvin had got the reply faster than me. It makes me feel so damn disappointed and sad. I thought that it would be nice to work at the pet restaurant. Well, never mind. Bo bian, this is life. I got to move on and find other job! Hurry up, Lareina Ho! If not they going to nag at you and they will excuses to say that you keep rotting at home and do nothing.

Well, another thing that bothers me is fwen. I feel like everyday I go to school, I am putting up a mask and to be someone that is not me. And it's not my fault. Everyone does that, and if I have to tackle all this nonsense. I think that it is really draining all my energy. I just want to be me.

And seriously,
I hate people who are not serious in lesson. I tends to be very serious towards my interest especially theatre stuff, so I will flare up if people are not serious and just want to get the day done and over with.
I hate people who are lazy to the extent that they want people to think for them. Then what for are you still living in this world, might as well go die.
I hate people who copy my idea. I share it with you, I didn't expect that you will be so lazy that you just simply took it in front of my face, thinking that I am okay with it. Well, I am most certainly not okay with it! But, I still got to act that I have no whatsoever problem with you copying my idea.
I hate people who is not listening to what I am saying. So you are so engrossed with each other that you just keep giggling and don't even listen to what I say. Fine, whatever. But I still got to smile and pretend I am okay that you fucking not listening to me even when you asked me to explain it to you. Fuck, why in the fucking first place ask me?!
I hate people who outcast me. So you think that you all whisper whisper secret to one another and kick me out of your conversation is cool huh?? Well, it's not cool at all. At first, I can tolerate with it becos I have no rights to interfere with who you want to talk anyway. But it's so damn obvious you dowan me to be part of your group. You're pushing me away.
I hate people who act innocent to make people like them. Seriously, i have seen through all your acts and finds you disgusting.
I hate people who 'booked' me in advance in case no one want to group with the people.
I hate people who bootlick faci like nobody's business. But it may also partly be the faci's fault. Just a few snacks and will guarantee an A. Who won't want to do it. Even I don't like what these people do, I also have no say on it. Say also will just create more troubles, and besides I need to put on the fucking mask, isn't it?!
I hate people who no matter use what method will also fights for the fucking grade A.
I hate people who is chee hong kia (well, except for jimmy of cos.) Stop it, you horny bastard.
I hate people who always have ulterior motive towards studying. Study only mah, need to fight one another and cause all this nonsense meh??

And lastly, I hate myself. Becos I acted like I am so good fwens with them when actually in my heart, I hated them. I hated what they done and yet I don't say anything at all. So I hate myself. Alot.

RP fwens are all hi-bye fwens, well except for some. Alvin, Jimmy, Mingyee, Simin, Christine, Zinc, e5 people, Pet, Chewy, Shuang... These are all my closest fwens. Fwens that can makes me feel that I am finally ME again. With them, I have nowhatsoever fucking mask on and I can just be crazy. Woohoo. So I love them and really treasure them. Alot. RP fwens.. come on, we don't even know each other long! Four months are not enough to know one another well. The next time you see them, you will just say 'Hi' and 'Bye'. That's all. Haha, hypocrite.

But at least I still have fwens that make me feel like I belong to them and finally I can be myself with no restrictions. So maybe whenever I with them, I will be super happy and hyper too! It really feels good to go home with them after all the cockshit I have to tolerate in class.

Oh by the way, enough of emo shit. Now is a good news. I got a better hp from my sis. Love her for that. Yeah!



LEO stands for Learning Environment Online.
And I didn't know it till now, like after almost one and a half year in RP. I don't know it's mine or RP's fault. I mean, when we first step into the school, nobody explains what LEO stands for! I think maybe the facilitator don't even know! All we know is LEO is the place where we do our rj and stuff, yada yada... And that's all.

So I guess no one know it huh? Well, now you do! :]
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Laughing Day.

Today is really a laughing day for me. I keep on laughing and laughing that in the end, I don't even remember what I am laughing for! Haha, dumbass me.

But somehow I feel happy. Maybe it is because I woke up coming from the right side of the bed and I am not grumpy or something like this. But wait a minute, I slept on the upper deck of the double decker bed! There is only one and only way to get out of the bed - which is climbing down from the ladder! Haha, really dumbass sia.

So I guess it must be because of Zinc, Simin and Samuel. We came school together. And I didn't even slept a single minute on the bus , this is so amazing. Usually I got up the bus, I sleep till I have to get down the bus. Haha.

And Zinc always can easily amuse me. She is a really good entertainer. And when we combine our power together, it will cause a great force which is called the Irritating Force. But now, she complained that we cannot communicate, just because there was some miscommunication on MSN. I think the real fault lies with her. Maybe her antenna got loose, that's why it did not connect to the same frequency as I am. Haha. Anyway, Zinc is really a Hiccuping Queen. Today she laugh too much that she started hiccuping! This trigger off my endless laughters. They all stopped laughing and there I was, still laughing like a crazy monkey. But I really can't stop laughing and I don't know why. All I know that it is really a good way to start my day! And indeed, I was cheerful and happy and abit 'out of my mind'. Haha, but it's okay cos it's me, LAREINA. Yes, that's what I should always do.

Today actually wanted to pon school but got TAG meeting. So I stayed throughout the lesson, not for Ganesh's sake but for TAG's sake. See, TAG is more important than going out with Alvin. Guess he is going to be upset when he sees this. Haha. In my mind, I struggle many many. I don't know what to do. Yes, I am damn indecisive. And I am damn easily influenced. Once somebody mentioned the word 'PON', my whole body starts to itch and longs to run off and have fun! Haha. Too bad, tomorrow cannot pon too cos got PM Visit Lawn Preview. I got to wear black. So remember it, LAREINA HO. I know you confirm will forget! So now, faster go take the clothes out!!

Okay, I just did it and found all the clothes I need for tomorrow. I shall be EMOblack girl! Haha.
Ohh, I just found out something interesting today. And that is... Qizhen is a Pigeon Girl! She can command the pigeons to attack people so everyone beware cos if you anger Qizhen, the next day you will find yourself submerged in pidgeon shit! Haha.



Hmm... who is she??

Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Today is Sucky Chicky Ricey Dayee!!

The most delicious chicken rice that I have ever eat fails me today. It used to soft and tender but now it is hard and tough. Puii! Not nice, Not nice at all! I dowan go back eat anymore! I lose trust in you. I rather go eat chicken rice at the coffee shop opposite RP. It is nicer and they have salted veg in the soup!



This photo supposed to be me and my sis but haiz, only got my hand!


Taa-daa. Finally finish the sucky food. In the past, the plate would be super clean but now there are some bad chicken left.


Evidence.


Hmm.. Today only the soup passed, others failed.

One word: SUCKS!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Best way of Laughing 101: Think of Simin

I can say Simin, or rather BenJiaMin, is really the most funniest friend I ever had! The most amzing thing is she crack jokes unknowingly!! And mostly, the jokes revolves around her. It's ALL about her! Haha.

Like today, one joke that I heard from Zinc today actually came from Simin herself. It is the joke of the day. Nothing can beat her joke. If you all know that ben ben simin then you will laugh your hearts out!

So here goes...
One lovely afternoon, Zinc and Bjm were on their way home and they are waiting for bus 161 at the Woodlands Interchange. Suddenly, Bjm saw a puddle of water on the road and that a bird was actually drinking it. She was very puzzled. And so she innocently asked Zinc, "Zinc, why the bird drink the bus petrol arh??"

Hahaha. Simin jiu shi Simin. So naive and innocent. It does not mean that a puddle of water on the bus interchange road means it is the petrol that leak from the bus! It is actually water dropped from the Air-con above! So dun be a ku-ku again! haha.

I guess Simin must be scolding in a very high-pitched Simin style of "lar.. What the fuck~". Hehheh. Dun blame me wor. It is really damn funny. Especially after Zinc tell me the joke and I link it with your dumb face expression, immediately I laugh out loud, almost gona roll on the floor too! By the way, we today wait for you then in the end, you meet your primary school fwen. So primary school friend more important than secondary school cum polytechnic friends lah!! Haha, so you owe me this. Heehee~

Monday, July 23, 2007
I don't like ChengHong

Firstly, he suddenly come and IM me to call me go see some youtube video
( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEn9QkLAbC8 )
then he make me forget that I supposed to paste my homework in LEO! And then, you know what happen next? *poof!* RJ gone, the fiacking video still remains. You see la, now you know why I don't like CH la! He always wrong timing and make people so suay.

"Not my fault what...", CH replied.

What the hell?? It's all your fault and you still dare deny?! One more charges to your crime now. Silence in Court while I pass the verdict. CH found guilty and hereby been sentenced to be disliked by Lareina Ho.

Secondly,He made me to go see some sweaty fugly guy, fucking Steven Lim showing his armpit hair while making some irritating farting noise!!!!!!!!!! And all the while, he is 'SUPPOSED' to be Beatboxing. It is seriously not funny, it just made me don't like CH more cos he is so bo liao to show me this kind of bo liao stuff.
Really damn damn bo liao.

Finally, It's all just a joke. I did this to irritate CH nia.
Wahaha. Woohoo! Haha.


P.S. Jin coincidentally send me another youtube video which cheer me up again.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEn9QkLAbC8

Sunday, July 22, 2007
Here are some evidences of cam-whoring with my sis's new hp


Best way to while away your time while waiting for MRT
Take pics using the glass screen!!
Nanatically proven.



Felt very bored while on the train?
Don't dare to sleep on the train but yet there's nothing to do??
Well.. fear not!
Dr. Nana researched that 100% of people won't fell asleep when cam-whoring.
So whacha waiting for?? Take out your hp right now.



The scenery view on the MRT front can also be beautiful.
Try it!
Guarantee plus chop chop.



Sister Abuse!!
Call 1900-help-im-bullied-by-my-sis now for advice on Sister Abuse.



Neh-ni-neh-ni-pu-pu!
Thought I will let you take pic alone?
No way!
No matter what, also must have my face..
even if it's just half of it.



Boat quay . Singapore River
One of Singapore's attraction
More beautiful after the rain



Taken of the view from Central Mall.
Through the glass panel, the sight of the scenery is wonderful
Don't believe?
Take a look below.



Now you believe me le right?
But maybe it is bcos of the excellent quality of my sis's hp!
Hehheh!



Haiz, how I wish I got a hp like my sis.
Then, I can take pic anywhere.
But too bad, I can never have a phone so good.
If not I lose it, my heart will be more painful.




:: Pawtobello Cafe . Pets Boutique ::

A nice place to go. Yesterday I went to this place, Pawtobello Cafe. It is a Pet restaurant. I went there for a interview. The guy there said he will call me up next week. I hope I can get the job. Please!! Please!! Please!! It will be damn fun, i guess.

My youngest sis, a pet-lover, accompanied me too. First we go to Tanjong Pagar for a pre-interview before we can go down to the cafe to go for another interview. Quite troublesome. And it's somemore raining and I don't have a damn fiacking umbrella! But when I reach the place, WOW! Heck care the troublesome trip to the interview. Forget all about the rain, and my swollen red hand due to the over-grabbing from my sis cos the slipper was slippery. And when I look at all the doggies, i was like, WOah! They are so damn cute!! well, except for one, which is the one my sis hated most. This hush puppies look-alike doggie named Fluffy was so excited about the place that it went all over the couch and pee to mark territories. My sis kena the urine so she was like,

"fuck that fluffy! I called Tiny (my cousin's dog) to bite you! If your owner wasn't there, I would have grabbed you hard and smack your face!"

Haha. And I actually thought that my sis loved dogs alot. I asked her and she replied that she like all dogs except that Fluffy. Haha. Plus, the owner saw the whole incident and she never even said a single Sorry to my sis. That Fluffy is too hyper! She almost peed on me but I was fast enough to shun the whole marking-territory thingy. If not I would have been one of Fluffy's territory. Hah!

Anyway, for Dog- lover, you can take your pets and take a look there! The design is very warm and cosy. The place is quite posh so naturally, the food price is quite posh too. A slice of cake cost about 6 bucks. But there are many other dogs too! Your doggy can play with other doggy. Both of you can eat together. WOW! So go visit the place. Well.. the only bad thing is that you have to be cautious about some dogs. They love to mark territories everywhere. So look out before they pee on you.

Address is No 33 Mohd Sultan Road #01-04 S<238977> Open from 9am to 10pm.
You can take purple line, which is the NE line, and walk to UE square. The cafe is just around there. Oh okay, there is a map for you. Go find the place yourself. I walk in the rain to find the damn place, okay! But it's worth a visit. It was a sight-opening view to see all those doggy running and playing with you. Very cool. Just go with your dogs.

Thursday, July 19, 2007
yes yes yes yes yes!!

I GOT MY HP back!
Wippeee!! Everyone, you can call me now.
It will be easier.
Yeah!
No need to pass message around just to get me.

Haha.
Today I feel so paiseh.
My mum called Alvin to call me go my aunt's house.
Den he called simin and lucia.
Den Simin called Christine den I got the message.
I reached my aunt's house and go online den Yiling come and remind me too.
Haha.
NOw... Everyone knows I going to my aunt's house!

Finally, got my sim card back, so cool!
Seriously, I wasted so many times just to get that smally wally teeny weeny sim card back.
I have to clear all my bill first.
Den I went down, they called me to bring my mum's IC down.
THe next day I go, they say need my mum to be present.
In the end, I so pekchek that I just called them to deliver it for me.
More easy.
In the first place, I should have done that!
But anyway, after all those troublesome matters, I finally got my sim card, and that's enough.
I sincerely pray not to lose my hp again.
I already very cautious abt hp and wallet
Still duno how come I will keep lose hp.

DUN LOSE ANYMORE BLOODY HP, YOU GET IT?!?
MOst irritating language - the double EE
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Doyee youyee knowee whatee isee theyee mostee irritatingyee languagee inee theyee worldee??
Yupee, itee isee theyee doubleyee EE.


Veryee irritatedee byee itee, rightee??
Tellee youyee somethingyee..
myee handee hurtee moree thanee youyee aree beenee irritatedee byee itee.
Myee leftee indexee fingeree isee inee painee nowee siayee.
Ouchee.




P.S. to decode, cancel all the double E.
Tiger Mingyee's Bdae Celebration
13July 2007, Friday (Yess, it's friday the 13th!)

Went to eat Zhu chao at Ave 8 with like... woah, 9 people!!
That's bloody many people there.
Sat a big round table but yet it is still squeezy.
So I tot, "hmm.. lucky barbra din come, if not no space to sit le."
I told everyone and they laugh.
HA-ha
What i actually meant is that if she come, maybe we have to separate into two tables!
But yeah, i meant both too anyway.
Hahaha.

Went to slack at Hougang Park Playground.
Entertain a small kiddo named Hakif, if im not wrong.
ANd... AND...
HE BULLY ME!
He beat me!!
BOO hoo hoo.
Can't believe that a big girl like me kena bullied by a small chubby sweaty boy.
He very 'gamm' with Samuel that dumbass idiot stupid @!$#%*&^%$^#@!&*%!
Cos everything starts from Sam.
That small boy will copy whatever Sam does.
I was using my leg to block the entrance of the slide that Sam was on... IN A JOKING MANNER.
And then, Sam grabbed my leg and pulled off my slipper and use it to smack my upper thigh!!
HOLY SHIt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the end, what i got is that kiddo copying him and smack my leg too and A BRUISE FROM SAM.
A fucking 1.5cm huge blue-black BRUISE resulted from the smacking of the slipper done by SAM.
YOU ASSHOLE!! !#@$#%$^%&^&*&%^$%#$@#!


Phew... I felt better.
Woohoo!
Okay then, now is the surprise.
We bought 1 kg chocolate cake to share among 10 people.
Woahh. everyone of us eat until the stomach gona burst!
We keep taking photos and used the camera flash to blind one another's eyes.
Haha.
It was supposed to be a surprise.
But then... somebody let out the whole suprise thing.
And i tink i was the one who let it out... indirectly.
Shall not elaborate further.
Cos the main thing is that tiger had enjoyed it and that's enough.
Me, Zinc, Min and Christ brought the same friendship ring with our names carved on it, together with tiger.
Oh ya... and gave her a tigger too.
It's so totally her.
And she has the cheek to ask why everyone give her tigger.
COS... tigger = tiger = mingyee
Simple.

I enjoyed it very much.
Made alot of noise.
Eat alot of nice yummy food.
LOVE it.
LOVE mingyee too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINGYEE.
Psst.. dun worry, you are not that old.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
How stupid can a girl without a hp be??
Oh yah..

A girl without a hp that is locked out outside her own house because she lost her key too!

This is how stupid I can be.
No people at home
No key
No hp
No one to turn to except for my laptop now since I can connect
I feel that I am really very stupid
VERY stupid me!
When can I learn to do the right thing?
When can I be lucky??
Why I always so suay???
Everytime when one thing went wrong, everything went wrong.
Nana shld be a very cheerful person but I'm not
I can't be happy when all these things happen.
I feel so not myself.
I want to be ME again.
STOP ALL NONSENSE in MY LIFE right now.
I change my link.
YESH!!
I tink I wun change anymore, i guess..
heehee~

Next is to change blogskin.
cos this is too kiddy.
but i like the skin is because the font is big.
The spacing is big.
Many blogskins are always packed in a teeny weeny space.
You want to see what you write also very xin ku.
Too bad Im not a pro-blogger.
If not i cfm zi ji lai.

Today is AngSongMing's last day.
YEAH!!
YEAH!!!
I wun miss him.
But shld be still going to see him soon.
Cos he suggest a job which is to go secondary schools to do sound recording of their rehearsal.
Each school is 30 bucks.
Easy money.
So no need to bear a grudge with money.
As much as I dislike him, I needed the money.
So I shall do it.
YEAH!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
I am sorry to announce you that I am going to say something that was not very nice and once again, I shall apologise for any inconvenience caused.
So here goes...

FUCK!!!!

Okay, that felt better. If I dun say it out, I may suffer from mental disorder and maybe you see me on the headlines tml - "Suicide - girl choked to death on a fishball"

I am so so pissed up with ME! What is wrong with me?! Why can't I, for once, did the right thing?? When will I really learn my lesson? This is already not the first time. So wake up, will ya?! Wake Up Lareina Ho! WAKE UP!!

I am very sorry. I lost you. I din mean to.. I can't even remember where I lost you.. toilet?? Canteen?? I really duno. All I know is you are gone and I only realised it like 1 hour plus later. I know anything I said now wun help. You are gone forever and never will be back. I'm sorry.. truly sorry. It's all my fucking fault (opps i did it again.) I din want to. Now I have no one to turn to. I feel so lost without you. I keep reaching for you but you weren't there. You are gone... Gone with the wind. I want you back. But it is impossible.

Fuck, I'm an emo kid. (opps i did it again... again)

Sorry... my hp~

Tuesday, July 10, 2007
SERIOUS Mood Swing!
MAJOR Mood Swing!!
CATASTROPHIC Mood Swing!!!
Fuack!!!!

Okay.. Sorry.
Not in the mood to be nice and guai.
Christ, Zinc, Bjm and me went crazy today in KOVAN heartland mall.
We came up with this super lame idea.
Just imagine... the Suicide Company

the PEEPz:
Zinc (the one who came up with this idea) -- SuicidO
Me!! (the one who craps and added to this idea) -- SuicideR
Christ (the one who came up with the 'fishball' suicide) -- SuicidA
BenJiaMin (the one who just laugh while we talking about it) -- SuicidEE

Uniform:
Bloody Hot Pink Trench Coat with a hat that has feather on it. (!!!)

Most Popular Ways of Suiciding:
Top No. 1 -- Fishball
Top No. 2 -- Feather
Top No. 3 -- Fish Bone

For more info:
Call 60747474
OR
visit www.suicide.com

HAH!! wouldn't it be nice?!~
ANd hey people.. this is all FAKe..
You call the number or visit the website also is fake.
Remember.. Dun try this at home!

:P
Monday, July 09, 2007
People!! I really really will try to blog as often as I could.
Believe me, I will!! ... ... ... I think.

Hehheh!!

Okay okay, I will really try my best.
So actually these few days got not much things happen. (Except that I come my menses and it's so painfully Argh!)
Next time den blog ba..
Now really duno what to blog.

So BYEE!! :P
Friday, July 06, 2007
YES today is the start of...
Using excellent internet (not leached de),
No need to share my laptop with my sis,
Watching SCV (wooHOO!),
And free incoming and outgoing calls!

TOO MUCH LE!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHH!!
So happy la!!

I am so damn damn happy.
Yeah.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
ANGSONGMING sucks!
I am so glad that he is leaving after next week!
woohoo!
Yippee!
wippeee!
HE is so fucked up!
FUCK!

I am going to evaluate him badly in Student Survey.
But since he is leaving le, so no point.
no need waste my time.
FUCK!
Now he's talking, and his voice just made me more angry.
He is not fit to be facilitator.
I hope he see my blog.
so that he know how stupid and idiotic he is.

FUCK YOU, ANGSONGMING!
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
I want to change my blog link.
I want new one.
AHhh!! but i can't think of one.
I want a simple and nice one.
But i duno what!
haiz.. anyone got any suggestion?

ONE GOOD NEWS!

I am going to have broadband, SCV (!!!!!) and a new phone line that got free incoming and outgoing calls!
Wippee!!
SCV!! The one I waited so long..
I pleaded my parents for like so many months and finally it is coming on this saturday!
3 more days!
WoohOO!!

Oh and finally..
My first A in UT!
I got A for History of Arts!



yeah!!


P.S. MINGYEE please go see doctor and take care of your health! I want to see you soon in school!! i miss ya!






hello, bitch.
yup, i'm calling u.



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