Either coincidences do happen a little too many times or I have bloody lotsa fwen in school. Met five different cliques of fwen or aquaintances on the bus today. Met so many people but yet unable to wake up in time to meet christ and zinc. it felt as though it's been a long time since I meet the both of them. Well, it's true. I neglected them. I neglected school. I feel so guilty and bad but I still do it.

Today in class, i spotted one of my fwen was looking at something at her laptop. So I kaypoh abit (okay ALOT) and see what she's doing. And guess what I saw. An excel sheet. A budget list. Sounds like FYP?? But it's not. It's the budget and saving plans for her wedding that may happen 4 or 5 years later. She's planning already which suddenly makes me feel old and DIFFERENT. Everything seems to change. And it's kinda fast and drastic change. Not in a bad way, of course. It's like "Hey dammit, i'm getting old." I remember I used to talk about the future with no worries when I was young. It was all dreamy and sweet. Now you grow up, it became some kind of fear - the fear to grow old and die. I become very paranoid. I become eager to live life to the fullest. Maybe the first year to the twenties are soon knocking in. Hence, the fear. Dammit, now i'm gona be in the twenties, same like the old mingyee. lol.

Anyway, sweet part now.
Alvin visited me just now. A surprise at night. Because I wanted it but in the end din wanted it cos it was really late, like 9plus at night. So I was doing my rj and wanting to IM zinc to play isketch again. Then, door knocking and there he was at my doorstep giving me a surprise! I never thought he would come. And around one hour later he has to take cab home yet he still come! If anyone (including me) going to say Alvin is a VERY LAZY pig, alvin can show evidence of my blog that he's not lazy. This is the first time he does that and also as a surprise. I'm just WOW-ed! This sweetest thing in my heart just wouldn't melt and it keeps linger inside but i love it. I love him.